


A couple of weeks ago my son turned nine. Nine. This is a big one for me and for him too. The night before his birthday he was tearful. He said he loved being eight so much and he liked being a kid and he was a little sad to grow up. Which is funny isn't it? It seems like my kids are always stretching up, trying a new hat on for size, pushing boundaries and reaching towards the next thing to do. They are always growing.
At nine, he is a sensitive boy. He is thoughtful to his friends. He sticks up for them if they are having a hard time and looks out to make sure everyone is getting their fair share. He worries a lot too. He worries if other kids get in trouble at school. He worries if everyone is happy. He is a worrier, for sure. But that is balanced with the most incredibly lightness. He smiles a lot and laughs hard. He is a joyful being. My friend commented when he was six months old that his nature was like pure light, a ray of sunshine. It is true, he has a way about him.
At nine I realize he has one year before he is in double digits. At nine, he is halfway through living with us, assuming he goes to university at 18. That just floors me. How quickly these past nine years have passed and quicker still time seems to be moving now. I want to hold on to him forever.
At nine, he loves his friends. He loves hanging out with them, playing lego, talking about stuff. He loves minecraft, a lot. He likes going to school. He is smart. He loves books and anything to do with history. He says he does not like math. He loves art and drawing. He is into manga comics. His favorite kind of days are when we are all together, maybe we go out for lunch and go to a bookshop then we come home and hang out, drink tea and read. He loves that, all of us togther in the living room. He also loves his family and tells us often.
He came to us nine years ago, without a cry, looked at me and cooed. I love him beyond words and beyond all measure. He is my little light, my love.